:: My Birthday!! :: A Special Gift From A Friend ::

Me and my friend, we had coffee yesterday. This is his gift to me for my birthday. Its amazing how a simple coffee session could be so inspiring.

The meeting was arranged by Allah, I'm sure. This is why.

:: Happy Together, Forever.. ::

p/s: Picture taken by my bestie, Nadya (thank you babe! love u!). She took this is July 2010 but I only notice it today when I idly look into my picture collection in my mac. OMG! This is what happens when you are too busy living a fast life.. You miss out on beautiful things..

:: Allah Yang Bagi Rezeki, Bukan Company ::

Salam beautiful people of the universe!

A while ago, when I was in my darkest time of my life, when I just lost a relationship and a job on the same day, I almost lost myself. I withdrew from the world. I turned my phone off, I refused even get out of the bed. I hit rock bottom.

:: Don't Add Me on Facebook! ::

Hey All,

Its kinda sad I know, but I have to reactivate my FB account.. Arrgghh!! I am one of the administrators for my company's group page (we use it for internal announcement too since not everybody checks their email anymore but they check their FB a few times a day) so as the PR person, I have to be managing the page. A few of my colleagues suggest I create another email and another FB account.. and just dont add anybody.. but I think I should just re-acivate my account and remove everyone. That way, I dont have to create a new email address.. hmmm...

So friends, I have to remove everyone except my mom and dad (coz they upload ziqri's photos once in a while.. so..). No heart feelings ya.. And please dont add me.. It kills me to decline any one of you.. If you wanna stay in touch, just visit my blog regularly ok.. I write regularly now since I longer spend so much time on FB.. Or, you can follow me via twitter..

There goes my dream to become invisible..

Good night dear friends..

p/s: i cant believe its actually real hard to remove friends.. i have to click and unfriend one by one!! OMG!!! (isnt there any way i can just select multiple users and click delete?) maybe its better to just create another account.. Darn!

:: Farewell Facebook! ::

Hello beautiful Khalifahs!

As of yesterday, I am Facebook free!! YAHOOOOO!!! And let me tell u, it has been a loooong time since I felt this free!

When I first registered with Facebook, I was invited by my bestie, Nad. So I registered but left it untouched. I was hooked on Friendster at that time.. (I dont even remember what I did on Friendster) But it was different then. The internet connection was not as fast.. There were very few people who were logged on to Friendster 24/7 via their phones. You had to find computers with internet connection to access your Friendster. So logging on to the net was a bit of a hassle and therefore very seldom.

:: Comel!! ::

Mimi made a very cute drawing of my 2010 New Year's Resolution.. Comelnyeeeee!!

To Mimi, thank you so much! Ko buat aku tersenyum cam kerang busuk selama 45 minit non-stop. (Walaupon aku baru balik meeting dengan kementerian, sangat letih, sangat irritated dan sangat sengal)

MEKASIH MIMI!!! Mwaahhhh!!

:: Counting My Blessing ::

I have made it a point to not feel sorry for myself and not to let others feel sorry for me. I find it hard to accept pity from others.

When 'that' thing happened, I lost quite a handful of friends. Those who took his side, those who judged and decided that I was to blame for the whole thing, those who simply are idiotic.

I was crushed and fell to the bottom end and thought that the life that I've known and love has ended. I fell into the loneliness pit..

But that didn't last long.. I decided soon enough that I'm only gonna do things that I love. Associate myself with positive people, ask help from the Almighty and realign my mindset so that I only attract great things into my life. I kept on telling myself that all that has happened is a blessing in disguise and that I will someday look back and realize that what I experience is not that bad at all.. Compared to those who lost their family to the tsunami, those who lost a limb or those with a terminal disease, mine will be like a walk in the park.

True enough, not long after the tragedy, I landed a job that I've been dreaming of.. befriended friends who make me laugh and lift me up in an instant, found solution to the debt that was dumped on me and found new activities I've always wanted to do but didn't know how to before..

First horse riding, now diving.. I've yet to learn a lot of things about diving but so far I'm enjoying every minute of it. The people I've met are awesome.. They look beyond my flaws and my past, they appreciate my talents and they give me support and encouragement that I needed. The best thing is that they have thought me to just lay back and enjoy each moment as they come.. No more protocol, no issues about who's making more money or who's got a bigger car.

The best thing is that I'm being paid to dive and be by the beach. I am grateful for this job!. When I want to ride, they have a horse stable.. when I want to dive, well, I have to dive since its my project in Terengganu..

Moral of the story is, when you think that you've hit rock bottom, think again. There is always somebody else out there who's having a worst day than you.. Be patience because you never know what God is planning for you. Always be optimistic and think of only good things and good things will come you way.

At the same time, be grateful.. So, Alhamdulillah.. I am very very grateful for all my blessings..

Chow peeps.. Take it easy.. And take care of your loved ones..

:: Advice of The Month ::

I receive a lot of advice from left right and center all the time. Some I think are very useful and some I don't but keep it at the back of my mind. A good friend of mine once said, things are said all the time about everything. Some good, some bad. The most important thing to remember is that only Allah has the power to make our mind and our heart accept whatever advice that is given to us.

So if you cant comprehend something immediately, don't dismiss it straight away. Don't even comment on it. For there will be a time when that particular advice might be useful. I hold what he said to heart and true enough, I realize that we may hear the same ol thing over and over again but when Allah decided to open our heart, we could really listen and practice the good piece of advice.

Yesterday, I received a comment on this blog about my previous post. Ray of light said (I hope you don't mind bro..) :

Let me quote a hadith (with highlights on the bolded words)

"Seven (types of) people will be shaded by God in His shadow on the day on which there will be no shade other than His: a just ruler; a young man raised in the worship of God; a man whose heart is attached to mosques; two people united in the love of God who join for Him and separate for Him; a man who is summons by a noble and beautiful woman to whom he says, “I fear God”; a person who gives charity secretly such that his left hand does not know what his right hand is giving; and a person who remembers God in seclusion and whose eyes fill (with tears).
-Abu Huraira

In life, there would be many friends and acquaintances that we will meet. Some will teach us, some will learn from us, some we will share our hearts with, while others we will keep it hidden.

But the most precious would be those that we meet and join because of Allah and when we part ways it is also because of Him.

Wallahualam.

His words, or rather the hadith touched my heart to the core. I've read and heard about it a few times but didn't really pay attention to it, but somehow, it gave me goosebumps when I read his comment. Could it be because he is sincere in giving advice, or that he speaks or wrote from his heart, I'm not sure. All i know is that I'm thankful for the support shown towards me.

Now, back to the hadith. Isn't it wonderful to know that the things mentioned are all achievable things that can be done by everyone including u and me? Especially the bolded part. I don't dare to comment further on things that are related to Islam for I fear giving the wrong comment and wrongly preach the mass. So just read it and analyze for yourself.

I also received a rather good advice from a man today. The man I met in AKPK (great program about financial management by the way.. Will spill more later). He said, "Allah bagi rezeki pada semua orang. yang Islam, yang bukan Islam, yang baik atau yang jahat. Semua akan dapat rezeki dariNya. Cuma yang membezakan setiap orang tu cuma keberkatan rezeki tu and sama ada kita akan dibalas syurga atau neraka, which is our ultimate destination. If the syurga we desire, Work our way towards keredhaanNya and take only monies that are meant for us."

Wallahualam..

It is so wonderful to receive all these advice from everyone. Keep em coming dear friends.

All of you take care of each other now. Say things that are good or don't say anything at all.

:: Tribute To Friends ::

"I select my friends.. I cant be friends with everyone. Those who make dumb jokes, I hate. Those who don't earn much, I hate. Those who flirt while being married, I hate.."

That's what one of my close friend once said. I kept quiet at that time of the conversation because I wanted to avoid friction. But the truth is, we are all special in our own way. And judging a person is not really our job in the first place.

I have a few friends who are earning very very little and a few who are unemployed and to be honest, they thought me a lot of things on how to save money and proved to me that all the best things in life are indeed free.

I have a few friends who constantly make dumb jokes. In fact, most of the time, I don't even understand their jokes and sometimes are offended by their jokes. But these are the people who thought me to laugh at anything at all. We don't need a*tro for entertainment if we see the world in a new humorous perspective.

I have a few friends who flirt with other women behind their wives back. I don't condone the act but they are the ones who help me recognize the 'buaya' easily. And honestly, based on experience, those guys who flirt and talk about women constantly are the ones who are harmless. Those quiet guys, 'konon-konon baik' guys are the ones u need to be careful of.

This past months made me realize I should count my blessings. I have a lot of great friends who stuck with me thru my ups and downs. From crying out of nothing in mus' place and being the 'bahan' till now, to sessions of starbucking and random conversations with amir to sneaking into the cinemas without buying any tickets with arip and ijok, to enjoying the scenery of the tasik under hot blazing sun with munir, to endless sessions of teh tarik and karaoke with almost everyone, I realized that whoever my friends are, they each have something wonderful to offer. Granted, they also have their own unique weaknesses, but why focus on the negative when the positive is much more wonderful?

So today, from the bottom of my heart, I thank all my friends. Be it those whom I see frequently or those I see less or those I don't see at all but somehow are connected with me albeit only through electronic devices.

THANK YOU FRIENDS!! I APPRECIATE ALL THE LOVE AND CARE THAT YOU SHOWED TO ME DESPITE MY WEAKNESSES. I LOVE YOU! MAY WE BE FRIENDS WHO LIFT EACH OTHER UP TOWARDS GREATNESS!

:: Huh??!! ::

Location : Capt B's crib.

Time : Between 9pm to 11pm

Mr Mat T, Capt B, Mr S and me are lounging on Capt B's nice & comfy sofa. Watching Federer half-heartedly on the telly.

Me : bla bla bla bla (I can't remember what we were talking about..)

Then suddenly, cutting my interesting story, Mr S jumped in..

Mr S : Eh B****k! Apai kata dia nak kawin dengan ko!

Me : Eh! Bida'ah! Mana ada I kata..

Mr S : Ada.. ari tu u kata!! hahahaha..

Me : Tipu!! Mana ada!! Bida'ah!

Mr S : Ada!! Ari tu u kata kat fon!!

Me : Takde! Takde! Tipu..

Then Mr Mat T and Capt B started singing something I don't even want to mention here..

MALU GILA WEI!! Kang dia kata aku lak terhegeh2!! Ada ke aku cakap? Aku rasa takde.. Maybe a misunderstood joke? Did I even joke about it? Takde kot.. Arrgghh whatever..
All I know is I'm not looking right now and there are better things to do in my life than to interfere with Gods plan. Bukan ke jodoh pertemuan, ajal maut ditangan Tuhan?

La Tahzan... Sabo je la..

:: La Tahzan ::

Hi Peeps..

Please excuse my silence..

I'm reading La Tahzan..

A present from a dear friend, Capt Mus a.k.a Capt Bongek..

Exactly what I needed at this point of time..

Will tell you more about the book when I actually finished reading it.. So far, its been amazing!

And yes.. well spill more about this dear friend later too..

So now, Shhhhh.. I'm continuing reading the book..

Take care peeps..