:: Stagnant Life ::

A lot is happening as of late. But somehow, I am bored. Bored of this stagnant lifestyle. Or am I actually bored at work? It seems like when I'm at work, I am wasting a lot of time, mostly doing nothing. I could do a lot more with my time if I'm out and about, not stuck here in my cubicle.

My father, being a wise man that he is, always say that work is ibadah. Do it for Allah. Not for the money, not for the bosses. That thought gives me strength to go to work and do the exact same thing day after day. Now that mira is gone, i'm super super bored! HELP!!!!!

:: Horses and Beaches ::

Aside from my family and my love, I am very passionate about the horses and beaches. The horses make me happy inside that no words can explain and the calmness I get when I'm on the beach is just bliss. When horses and beaches are combined, wouldn't it be priceless.

En Penn's stable in cherating is the only place i can think of where there are horses and beaches.

Therefore, I'm seriously considering doing a second reception in cherating. Boleh ke En Penn? Pleaseeee...

:: The Question & The Answer ::

I think most of you, especially those who are close to me, are aware of my future planning. I got mixed responses for this. Some say its too early, some say they are happy for me.

To me, its simple. I have no guarantee that this is going to work out 100%. And I have no guarantee that it wont work either. I just can keep working on being a better person for him n for me.

I mean, how long do you have to know a person before you decide? Do years of courtship really do determine your level of happiness with a person? I dont think so..

I have been asking this exact same question to a few people when they asked for my hand in marriage. (not at the same time of course). "Why do you want to marry me?". I've had a lot of answers. Some I liked and some I despised. When I asked him the question, He answered "Nak elak dosa & nak tambah pahala". Need i say more?

One of my close friend called me yesterday and said "U tak serik ke pai? U baru je kanal dia!" I am thankful that he cares and concern. But what should I do? Be 'serik' and never get married again? Or stay in a relationship with him for a few years and then consider marrying him? Why cant we date after marriage?

Is it really our position to arrange our lives? After all, to quote a dear friend of mine, "Allah dah buat akaun kita siap-siap dah even sebelum kita dilahirkan. Cuma cara kita acquire those things yang memberi kita dosa dan pahala, n berkat & tak berkat kehidupan kita ni.."

Wallahualam..

Dari Abdullah ibnu Amar ibnu Al-Ash r.huma meriwayatkan saya mendengar Rasulullah salallahu a'laihi wasallam bersabda:

Telah ditulis oleh Allah takdir seluruh makhluk 50,000 tahun sebelum Dia menciptakan langit dan bumi. Baginda juga bersabda: Dan ArasyNya berada diatas air. (H.R. Muslim)

Dari Anas r.huma meriwayatkan, bahawa Rasulullah salallahu a'laihi wasallam bersabda:

Sesungguhnya besarnya pahala adalah bergantung dengan besarnya ujian atau penderitaan. Dan sesungguhnya apabila Allah mengasihi sesuatu kaum. Dia akan menguji mereka (dengan penderitaan). Oleh sebab itu, barangsiapa yang redhai ujian Allah, Allah juga akan meredhainya. Dan barangsiapa yang tidak redha, maka Allah juga tidak meredhainya. (H.R. Tarmizi).

:: Comel ver.2 ::

aku kalerkan.. kekeke..

(nampak cam aku takde keje kan? tapi sebenarnya aku buat ni sementara tunggu cik abang setel keje dia.. hehe)

:: Comel!! ::

Mimi made a very cute drawing of my 2010 New Year's Resolution.. Comelnyeeeee!!

To Mimi, thank you so much! Ko buat aku tersenyum cam kerang busuk selama 45 minit non-stop. (Walaupon aku baru balik meeting dengan kementerian, sangat letih, sangat irritated dan sangat sengal)

MEKASIH MIMI!!! Mwaahhhh!!

:: Touchy Touchy ::

Sehari dua ni aku cam cepat lak terasa hati. Orang cakap sikit je terus rasa sedih. Terus cam nak nangis. Padahal kalau difikir2 balik dengan fikiran yg waras, menda yang dikatakan tu no biggie sebenarnya.

Why? I dunno. My best assumption is maybe the monthly visitor is coming very soon kot. Whatever the reason is, I'm tired of feeling this way. Tak rock aa!!

So to those who are close to me, kalau korang nampak aku cam terasa hati tu, just let me be for a bit. With time, I usually will recover to my normal state. Tapi kalau nak pujuk boleh gak.. hehe

Ok peeps.. take care! And be happy!

:: Encik Penn ::

Apa kabar en. Penn skang ye.. lama tak dengar cerita.. i will call u one of these days en penn..

:: Burnt Out!! ::

Who would've guessed that someone would be burnt out this early.. Its only January I know.. but I think that I'm seriously exhausted. I need a vacation.. Heck, I would be happy with just a weekend in genting. Wherever! I dont care! I just dont wanna be in KL!

I need the beaches.. I need the sand.. I need oxygen form the tank..

Or maybe I just need a good retail therapy?

Or movie marathon?

HELP!!

:: Sincere Applogy ::

Due to unforseen circumstances, the post entitled :: Budak Bank :: has been deleted.

I never meant to offend anyone or to downgrade anybody. The post was written during my emotional state of mind. If anybody was hurt or offended in any way, I'm sorry.

With this, I humbly appologize from the bottom of my heart.

I encourage any comments, be it positive or negative from my readers. If you think any post in this blog of mine is too forward or vulgar or might hurt anyone, please do inform me.

Last but not least, I thank you for taking your time to read my rantings and please keep on reading..

Have a great weekend. Luv u all!!

:: Alhamdulillah ::

An interesting job offer just presented itself in front of him yesterday.. Doing something that he's good at.

I for one is excited for him. Partly because it somehow will lessen his worries and burden.. And partly because it proves my point that monies and your thoughts work exactly opposite ways. When you worry too much, you will actually push the money away and when you go with the flow and not think too much about it, money will suddenly come from all directions. Just gotta have faith!

That being said, I cant help feeling anxious. I worry....

Now is the perfect time to remember what my sifoo used to say..

"99% of your worries never materialize!"

In fact, sometimes the negative thoughts are actually the work of the devil.. (so calm down apai!)

I guess I have to prepare myself.. I dont think I'll be seeing him that much, now that he's doing two jobs.. Ah well, as long as he treats me as sweet as he does now, I'm fine with it.. And besides, I've always admire and adore guys who work hard. Another point in my 'characteristics of my dream guy' ticked!