:: Our 'Proposal' Anniversary ::

We were first friends.. We were very close and were very comfortable with each other. Then suddenly our feelings changed. I started to miss him when I didnt talk to him.. He started to call me more often..

Then, exactly one year ago today, 21/12/2009, he proposed to me.. His words were simple, straight to the point.

He: Aku suka ko, ko suka aku tak?

Me: Suka..

He: Ok.. jom kawin.. aku dah boring aa bercinta lama2 tapi tak jadi apa..

Me: Ok..

I was thrilled! So in March we were officially engaged, in July, we were married..

Now, one year later, 21/12/2010,  i'm 4 weeks pregnant with his child! 

I am blessed!

To my dear hubby, Thank you for being there for me, thank you for working so hard for our family.. thank you for taking care of me.. thank you for being a man.. thank you for restoring my trust in men.. and most importantly, thank you for having me as your wife! I couldnt ask for more! 

I Love You Sayang!

:: My Unique Feature - Republish!! ::

I decided to republish this entry because... well, because it's my blog!! hehe.. anyway, for those of you who have read this, thank you so much, for those who havent, feel free to.. 

Take Care!!


(this entry was writen on Nov 19, 2009)

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No, this is not those kind of post where I ramble about how people are different and everyone has their own unique characteristic and that's what makes the world a better place to live in..

This post is about my birthmark. Yup I have a distinguish birthmark on my right arm.

When I was little, the mark was smaller, rounder and darker (maybe because I was fairer back then). I was somehow conscious about it in school since everyone kept on asking about it. They asked questions like "apa tu?" or "kena air panas ke tu?" or "eh, tangan ko kotor aa.."

A boy called me 'si tompok' at school. Crazy, irritating boy! He would gather his friends and started shouting 'OI SI TOMPOK!!' from across the school field. (OMG! I hated that boy so much!!)

At one point, I wanted to wear long sleeves all the time to cover it. I was tired of hearing questions and remarks about my birth mark. I might have mentioned it to my mom and being a wonderful, beautiful mother that she is, she started telling me how I'm one of the luckiest girl in the whole world because I was born with that mark on my arm.

"Kalau hilang, mak nak cari senang.. takyah cari susah2.. tengok tangan je dah tau anak mak yang mana satu.." she said with that great smile of hers. "Lagipon, mana ada orang lain yang dilahirkan dengan jam.. only u.." she would add. That restored my self esteem. I started drawing numbers and strap on my arm. When anybody asked about my birth mark, I would show them gladly and said "this is my watch. I was born with it!".

My dad, a loving father that he is would hold my arm and 'analyse' the mark and started to tell me how the mark looks like the map of Australia, Singapore or any other country that he can conjure at that moment.

Time passed and I managed to turn a deaf ear to all the remarks about my precious mark. In fact, I have forgotten about it until the day I went to a cabin crew interview with Malaysia's full service airline. After passing all the stages, including the grooming test, after waiting for more than 7 hours, the head interviewer called me up and told me that I would have to surgically remove my birth mark if I really want the job. In my heart, I was cursing him. F him. Never in this lifetime would I remove something I regard as special on my body. So I said to him, its ok, I'm not that desperate. I'm sure other airlines can look beyond my birthmark and notice my potential.

So off I went to another full service airline from Singapore and Dubai. The airline for Singapore accepted me but told me to cover it with foundation or concealer every time before flight. Because of that experience, I 'declared' my birth mark during the early stage of interview with the airline from Dubai. And surprisingly, all I got was a puzzled look. The head interviewer said with raised eyebrows, "So?". An international airline, among the highest paying airline in the world is not even slightly bothered with what everyone else think as a birth defect. I got in despite of the birth mark.

Well, anyway, time passed and once again I sort of forgot about it. I didn't even notice it anymore. And I realize that when I don't think about it, people don't think about it.

But yesterday, when I was in the 'kamar kecil', idly, I looked at my right arm. And realized that I have forgotten about my birth mark! Seriously my heart skipped a beat. As though I was seeing it for the first time. I have forgotten about something that makes me different from anyone else..

So today, I'm appreciating my birth mark again. I'm glad I have it. I'm never gonna be me without it.

Again, after more than 20 years, I'm wearing the watch that I'm born with...

Take care peeps.. Luv ya!

:: Doa Akhir & Awal Tahun ::

Doa Akhir Tahun dibaca 3 kali pada akhir waktu Asar atau sebelum masuk waktu Maghrib  pada akhir bulan Zulhijjah.Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Kesusahan bagiku dan sia-sia lah pekerjaanku menggoda anak Adam pada setahun ini dan Allah binasakanaku satu saat jua. Dengan sebab membaca doa ini, Allah ampunkan dosanya setahun”

Doa Akhir Tahun

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu.

Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa akhir tahun ini, maka syaitan akan berkata:

“Hampalah kami di sepanjang tahun ini”.

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Doa Awal Tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam satu Muharram. Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan

dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan”.

Doa Awal Tahun

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

:: Daulat Tuanku ::

I love my Agong! I seriously think that he is the most humble leader in Malaysia and the entire world.. 

LONG LIVE TUANKU MIZAN & PERMAISURI AGONG!!

May Allah bless you..

:: Project AWARE Celebrities ::

Great Sunday Everyone!!

I know I mentioned in my last post that I have no desire to talk about our reception, but in light of this new information, I have to tell a little bit about the event..

See, our aim when planning the reception was to do it moderately, with the environmental friendly concept in mind.. which means to focus and spend more on good food, and do the rest ourselves. So I did my own make up and hair, got Hajar (my SIL) to design the card and printed it on recycle paper ourselves (without envelope because nobody keeps envelope right? so why not save some trees), and as for door gifts, we decided to educate our guests.. At the same time, we want the door gift to really portray 'us' as a couple. 

Since we both love diving so much (and the fact that we met underwater in Redang), we commissioned a friend of mine (Mims) to draw (or stoodle as she calls it) a picture of us diving. The stoodle turned out great! We printed that stoodle on a brown bag, which by the way costs us around RM6 for a bag of 100pcs brown bags.. on the reverse side, we printed something that we think everyone should know.. 5 ways to help protect the coral reefs.. On our first draft, I listed 10 equally important ways to save the reefs but since the bag was not big enough, we slashed it to 5. 

The reason we chose the brown bag other than its super cheap, is because we just wanted the bag to be a medium for our real gift, which is the knowledge/awareness as well as 3 pieces of bahulus made by my mom.. And even if people were to chuck the bag away just after they enjoy the bahulus and read the information, I wouldnt feel the heartache.. Hopefully they're gonna take the information printed on it and keep it with them for the rest of their lives..

Now for the bahulus, they were made by my mom. Since at that time she was seriously planning to start a bahulu business after her retirement, we thought that the least we could do was to help her advertise her business.. So again, we designed a simple card for the bahulus. I did a short story, just like I would write a blog, and place it in the bag, together with the bahulus of course. 

the bahulu - click on pic to enlarge

the front cover - click on pic to enlarge

the story - click on pic to enlarge

the story - click on pic to enlarge

We glued the handle made of 'tali guni' ourselves and begged our friends to help us insert the bahulus in the brown bag..

Well anyway, a few days after the ceremony, we had a chance to visit the MIDE (Malaysian International Dive Expo) in PWTC. It was there that I approached the Aware Project counter and told them about our little bag. They were so thrilled by our effort and insisted that we posed with the bag for them. 

Long story short, we were featured in their blog and website.. (The 'chinese' bit was incorrect but what the heck..). So check it out!! This made it all worth it!! Our plan to educate only our guests turned out to be more than that.. We wouldnt have done it any other way! We couldnt ask for more..

click HERE to view the website

click HERE to view the website

So thats it! Thats how we became project AWARE celebrities.. Which is way better than appearing in Vogue for us.. 

Enjoy peeps!!

:: Wedding Ceremony in General ::

Hey gorgeous people!!

Its been ages, I know.. I've been wanting to write but somehow I managed to create millions of excuses not to.. Well, the truth is, I miss it.. I miss this.. I miss just letting my head free and ramble on about everything under the sun.. 

Ok enough of that.. Now lets talk about the recent activities.. (where do I start???)

I am now married.. the ceremony was held in July. 10th was the solemnisation in Bangi & 17th was the reception in FRIM. (since we are both from KL, we did it only once)

To tell you the truth, I have no desire to go into details about the ceremony.. To me, a wedding ceremony is just a ceremony.. People are often blinded by the desire to make the ceremony as memorable as possible. But does memorable equals expensive? I seriously dont think so.. To me, a memorable ceremony is a ceremony done differently than others.. a ceremony that doesnt succumb to the stereotype.. one that is personal, matches the couple's lifestyle. 

If the couple loves bling2, then their memorable ceremony should feature a lot of diamonds and sparkly thing.. if the couple loves cars, then their memorable ceremony should somehow incorporate the cars.. For us, we love diving, outdoor and nature. We strongly uphold the environmental friendly lifestyle as our way of life and therefore our memorable ceremony was held in FRIM. (We were thinking to do it in Redang but because of the logistic and cost, we dismissed the idea). 

Now the costing.. why do people think that getting married will cost you an arm and a leg? Is our society too obsessed with what people think and say? I heard recently about a couple who is getting hitched in a 80,000 ringgit wedding ceremony.. That is not including hantaran, mas kahwin & honeymoon. Why??? The couple is of an average income family and the money they used is actually a loan from a bank.. Why spend all those money for something that will only last 5 hours? Wouldnt it be more wonderful to spend the money for a honeymoon? or a new house? 

Is it worth starting a new life with a new partner with loads of debts? For what? For a night of glory? No thanks..

And then there's this thing I heard of late called 'pre-wedding photo-shoot'.. Why people? Whyyyy?? That photo-shoot alone would cost more than 1K.. Then the couple would still do a photo-shoot on the solemnisation day and then again on the reception day.. The whole photo-shoots would then sum up to more than 3K. And that is if they use an average photographer. If they were to use a more experienced shooter with a strong portfolio, of course the fee would be higher. But that is beside the point. Why pre-wedding? Why do you want to pay people to document you touching, hugging and committing sins with your partner before you become legally partners? 

I understand the non-muslims doing it.. They are not MUSLIMS! enough said. Clearly muslims are forbidden to even be alone with the partner. 

All in all, I support all those who wanna get married, as long as it is done in moderation and done because of the right reasons.. When a wedding ceremony is done to show your wealth and to be boastful, then it can become sinful...

p/s: ingat 3 perkara yang mesti dipercepatkan! 1) membayar hutang 2) mengebumikan orang mati 3) mengahwinkan anak perempuan.

wallahualam..

:: I Wanna Be A Rockstar!! ::

Nickelback - Rockstar


I'm through with standin' in lines to clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth and I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub
Big enough for ten plus me
(Yeah, so what you need?)

I need a a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
(Been there, done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher
And James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I'll have the quesadilla, ha, ha)

I'm gonna dress my ass with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves
To blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills from a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writin' all my songs
Lipsynk 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Well, we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses, drivin' fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat

And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Well, hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

:: Stagnant Life ::

A lot is happening as of late. But somehow, I am bored. Bored of this stagnant lifestyle. Or am I actually bored at work? It seems like when I'm at work, I am wasting a lot of time, mostly doing nothing. I could do a lot more with my time if I'm out and about, not stuck here in my cubicle.

My father, being a wise man that he is, always say that work is ibadah. Do it for Allah. Not for the money, not for the bosses. That thought gives me strength to go to work and do the exact same thing day after day. Now that mira is gone, i'm super super bored! HELP!!!!!

:: Horses and Beaches ::

Aside from my family and my love, I am very passionate about the horses and beaches. The horses make me happy inside that no words can explain and the calmness I get when I'm on the beach is just bliss. When horses and beaches are combined, wouldn't it be priceless.

En Penn's stable in cherating is the only place i can think of where there are horses and beaches.

Therefore, I'm seriously considering doing a second reception in cherating. Boleh ke En Penn? Pleaseeee...

:: The Question & The Answer ::

I think most of you, especially those who are close to me, are aware of my future planning. I got mixed responses for this. Some say its too early, some say they are happy for me.

To me, its simple. I have no guarantee that this is going to work out 100%. And I have no guarantee that it wont work either. I just can keep working on being a better person for him n for me.

I mean, how long do you have to know a person before you decide? Do years of courtship really do determine your level of happiness with a person? I dont think so..

I have been asking this exact same question to a few people when they asked for my hand in marriage. (not at the same time of course). "Why do you want to marry me?". I've had a lot of answers. Some I liked and some I despised. When I asked him the question, He answered "Nak elak dosa & nak tambah pahala". Need i say more?

One of my close friend called me yesterday and said "U tak serik ke pai? U baru je kanal dia!" I am thankful that he cares and concern. But what should I do? Be 'serik' and never get married again? Or stay in a relationship with him for a few years and then consider marrying him? Why cant we date after marriage?

Is it really our position to arrange our lives? After all, to quote a dear friend of mine, "Allah dah buat akaun kita siap-siap dah even sebelum kita dilahirkan. Cuma cara kita acquire those things yang memberi kita dosa dan pahala, n berkat & tak berkat kehidupan kita ni.."

Wallahualam..

Dari Abdullah ibnu Amar ibnu Al-Ash r.huma meriwayatkan saya mendengar Rasulullah salallahu a'laihi wasallam bersabda:

Telah ditulis oleh Allah takdir seluruh makhluk 50,000 tahun sebelum Dia menciptakan langit dan bumi. Baginda juga bersabda: Dan ArasyNya berada diatas air. (H.R. Muslim)

Dari Anas r.huma meriwayatkan, bahawa Rasulullah salallahu a'laihi wasallam bersabda:

Sesungguhnya besarnya pahala adalah bergantung dengan besarnya ujian atau penderitaan. Dan sesungguhnya apabila Allah mengasihi sesuatu kaum. Dia akan menguji mereka (dengan penderitaan). Oleh sebab itu, barangsiapa yang redhai ujian Allah, Allah juga akan meredhainya. Dan barangsiapa yang tidak redha, maka Allah juga tidak meredhainya. (H.R. Tarmizi).