:: Huh??!! ::

Location : Capt B's crib.

Time : Between 9pm to 11pm

Mr Mat T, Capt B, Mr S and me are lounging on Capt B's nice & comfy sofa. Watching Federer half-heartedly on the telly.

Me : bla bla bla bla (I can't remember what we were talking about..)

Then suddenly, cutting my interesting story, Mr S jumped in..

Mr S : Eh B****k! Apai kata dia nak kawin dengan ko!

Me : Eh! Bida'ah! Mana ada I kata..

Mr S : Ada.. ari tu u kata!! hahahaha..

Me : Tipu!! Mana ada!! Bida'ah!

Mr S : Ada!! Ari tu u kata kat fon!!

Me : Takde! Takde! Tipu..

Then Mr Mat T and Capt B started singing something I don't even want to mention here..

MALU GILA WEI!! Kang dia kata aku lak terhegeh2!! Ada ke aku cakap? Aku rasa takde.. Maybe a misunderstood joke? Did I even joke about it? Takde kot.. Arrgghh whatever..
All I know is I'm not looking right now and there are better things to do in my life than to interfere with Gods plan. Bukan ke jodoh pertemuan, ajal maut ditangan Tuhan?

La Tahzan... Sabo je la..

:: My Second Check-Up ::

I went for my second check-up at klinik berhenti merokok tanglin yesterday. I know.. I know.. A lot of people quit smoking just like that but I just wanna make sure that my plan to quit is not just a plan equipped with 1001 excuses. I wanna make it work this time so I thought it wouldn't hurt to get some support and back up. Besides, its free.. so why the hell not? (I LOVE MALAYSIA!!)

Anyway, every time I go for my weekly appointment, they will check my blood pressure, my weight and carbon monoxide (CO) level in my lungs. The first time I blew into the freakish machine, my CO level was 21. 21, mind you. Which means that almost 50% of my blood is rejected by my body already. During my first visit, the clinic was packed with a lot of guys, most of them in their 40s and have been smoking their whole lives and the highest among all of them was 13. Mine was 21! So when the loud nurse announced my number to the crowd, their jaws dropped. They just stared at the only lady patient in the clinic with disbelieve. I was taken aback by the sudden attention towards me and seriously didn't know what the most appropriate reaction should be. So I decided to jump up and down while shouting "Yey!! saya menang!!" Hahahaha.. it was hilarious!. Seeing their stunned faces was just priceless!

Then, during the talk by the doctor, using a chart, she explained to each and every patient their level of CO and what its doing to the body. When it was my turn, the doctor just kept quiet for a bit. She kept looking at the chart and said nothing. You know why? Because she didn't know what to say to me. Because the highest number in the chart is 20. hahahah. Mine is 21.

Being the only female in the whole lot (and being the loudest kot) I got special treatment from the doctor. Instead of the normal yucky nicotine gum, I got the fruity flavoured gum. And I also got the patches as well.. (the rest of the guys didn't get the patched even when a few of them asked for it) Because according to the doctor, "a pretty girl like u shouldn't smoke or chew too much gum..". hahahahaha... fewwittt..

Anyway, my second check-up was yesterday. So I went and blew into that freakish CO machine again.. and amazingly my CO level is now 2!!! wooohoooo!!! That is basically a normal level for non-smokers already. (1 to 4 is the normal level for non-smokers, living in KL). I'm psyched! Isn't our bodies great? (subhanallah!)

I'm all ok now.. just with occasional tantrums. But lately I cried a few times with no apparent reason. I'm not sad or anything.. I just felt like crying.. I mentioned it to the doctor and she said as long as I'm not feeling suicidal or something like that, I should just cry my eyes out.

So there you go.. For all the sceptics out there, I can quit, and I have. Say what you want. For those who want to quit but feel its too hard, contact me and we can go to the clinic together, if you need moral support. The clinic is provided by the government for the people. It free. It gives all the ammunition like patches, gums, vitamins for free. The same nicotinelle patches that you can get from pharmacies would cost you minimum RM80 per box. And a box would only last for only one week. So you do the math.

Till next time, take care of each other peeps..

:: Smoke-Free Appai!! ::

Today marks the 2nd day of me without cigarette.. I had my doubts about quitting so I went to one of those klinik berhenti merokok thingie. And surprisingly, it was quite good.. They are gonna do a weekly monitoring on me.. And the first step is to announce to the world your desire to quit. So that people would stop offering you ciggie and start supporting and encouraging you.

So here I am announcing to the universe...

APPAI IS A NON-SMOKER NOW!! PLEASE BEAR WITH HER!!

This is actually harder than I ever imagined. Arrggghh!!

I need all the support I can get from everyone. And by support I mean be patient with me when I get irritated, remind me not to drink coffee, let me rest when I yawn like nobody's business and never ever smoke in front of me at least for a month! These symptoms are called withdrawal symptoms. Its a result of nicotine withdrawal from your body. And the body is actually doing its job cleansing my organs from chemicals and toxins. Arent our bodies great! (Subhanallah!!)

Oh ya.. and remind me to jog. As I could gain some weight because food would actually taste and smell better when I don't have all these chemical in my body.

Oh by the way, thank you for all the birthday wishes.. Thanks Amir for the gorgeous red bean bag, Thank mr anonymous for the perfume, thanks Mus for the book and dinner, and thanks for the rest who actually remembered my birthday.. Thanks you guys.. u're the best!

K.. Take care all.. Luv Ya!!

:: Birthday Ogy ::

Hello gorgeous people of the universe.. 

Today, 28th May is my brother's birthday.. His name is Fauzi bin Jaafar and he's dearly called Ogy at home. 

What can I tell you about Ogy.. hmm.. he's a boy, i mean a man of few words.. Not as noisy as me of course.. to be exact, wayyy wayyy quieter than me. Since he was a little boy, he's always been referred to as the hindustani hero of the family. 

He's a phlegmatic, has always been great with money and a smile is always plastered on his face all the time. He's a great brother to me and Faetz and a great son to my parents. Compared to me, he caused very little problem at home. 

As a child, I remembered being overprotective of Ogy before Faetz was born. I protected him from the bullies at school, hugged him when he cried after being teased by his big brother (arwah Boy) and prepared his milk and made sure he had his afternoon nap. 

I did all this because of my natural instinct as a big sister. Little that I know, the brother whom I cared for when he was in his diapers turns out to be my protector now. 

Thank you ogy for being there for me. I am so proud of you and wish for only the best for your future. You are a wonderful person with wonderful things to offer the world. I am blessed to be you sister and thank you for being a great brother and a friend to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OGY!

p/s: Ogy jaga mak n abah tau. Sentiasa ingat yg ogy skarang anak laki paling tua in the family. Sentiasa jaga hati dorang, hormati dorang, doakan dorang and jangan sekali2 lupa bagi mak abah a bit of your salary every month k.. lebih berkat rezeki ogy nanti. Kaklong doakan ogy panjang umur and murah rezeki. Kaklong sayang ogy.

:: 30th Birthday Wishlist ::

This coming 31st i'm turning 30! OMG!! 30 Years Old!!

THIRTY!! 30!!

From 2G to 3G..

From 2 series to 3 series!

Well anyway, I'm seriously looking forward to apply whatever life had teach me for the past 29 years.

Since I've made this 'turning 3series' thingie such a big commotion, a lot of you have asked me what I wish for my birthday.. Other than the cliche 'i wanna be happy, i wanna have more friends and world peace' B.S, below is the long awaited birthday wishlist... Enjoy!!

1) Red Bean Bag (because the theme for my reading corner is red & white)

2) Anna Sui Perfume

3) Candace Bushnell Books (anything except sex & the city)


4) Ariat endurance riding boots (without pig skin lining)


5) D&G Light Blue perfume
6) Pioneer DVD player (oh so in need of this one.. )


7) A stallion horse (a white one would be great)


8) A Hummer (a red H3 pleaseeee)



ok now I'm being silly.. So thats it..


p/s: for those who wanted to 'tong-tong' to buy my dream ikea tv bench, (u know who u are).. pls dont do that.. coz I've bought that already a few days back.. (naik wira je ko.. tapi aku kena dok blakang driver sbb menda tu terjulur dari depan sampai blakang.. haha klaka.. but now that I think of it.. it was actually quite dangerous.. ah well...)


Take care friends.. and take care of each other..


p/s 2: kengkawan (& cousin), aku cam agak sibuk sket, at least sampai 25th of this month. So ampun dan maaf kalau aku tak dpt nak melepak kat KL or PJ cam biasa.. sorry k..

:: Pink - So What ::

Isn't she awesome?!

Na na na na na na
Na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na

I guess I just lost my husband
I don't know where he went
So I'm gonna drink my money
I'm not gonna pay his rent (nope)
I've got a brand new attitude,
And I'm gonna wear it tonight
I'm gonna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight

Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight
Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight

So,
So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

Unh Check my flow Uohhh

The waiter just took my table
And gave it to Jessica Simps(Shit!)
I guess I'll go sit with drum boy
At least he'll know how to hit(Oops)
What if this song's on the radio,
Then somebody's gonna die! haha
I'm going to get in trouble,
My ex will start a fight

Na na na na
He's gonna to start a fight
Na na na na
We're all gonna
To get into a fight

So,
So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

You weren't fair
You never were
You want it all but that's not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren't there, you let me fall

So, so what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

No no
No no, I don't want you tonight
You weren't there
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

Ba da da da pffftt

:: La Tahzan ::

Hi Peeps..

Please excuse my silence..

I'm reading La Tahzan..

A present from a dear friend, Capt Mus a.k.a Capt Bongek..

Exactly what I needed at this point of time..

Will tell you more about the book when I actually finished reading it.. So far, its been amazing!

And yes.. well spill more about this dear friend later too..

So now, Shhhhh.. I'm continuing reading the book..

Take care peeps..

:: Things Will Come When We Least Expect It ::

Have you ever closed your eyes real tight till it hurts, hoping for something to come your way? Desperately wanting something that you think your life might crumble if you don't get it soonest possible? 

The thing I learned from all this little 'dugaan' that the Almighty has presented to me is that you will get what you deserved. Allah Maha Adil. When you don't get it, have faith that He is actually protecting you from something that might come your way if you were to get what you asked for. Or maybe the timing is not right for that something to be presented to you at that moment. 

Funny thing about life is, just when you thought you've hit rock bottom, just when you thought that your life couldn't get any worst, just when you thought you are the biggest loser in the universe, you are blessed with things beyond your imagination. Things that you have been asking and hoping for all your adult life.

I'm grateful for the loving family that I have..

I'm grateful for the health that is blessed upon me & my family..

I'm grateful for the friends who are constantly supporting and non-judgemental..

I'm grateful for the neighbours who are protective..

I'm grateful for all the opportunities that come my way..

I'm grateful for the knowledge learned and still pouring in from every angle..

I'm grateful for the little luxuries in life..

Alhamdulillah..

:: Wonderwoman - Mulan Jameela ::

Cam best lak lagu ni..





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Mungkin sudah ke seribu kali
Tak tahu kapan akan berakhir
Segala penyiksaan ini

Kamu tampar aku lagi
Dengan penyakit lamamu
Semakin lama aku pun bisa
Menjadi benar-benar gila

Reff :Aku bukan wonder womanmu
Yang bisa terus menahan
Rasa sakit karena mencintaimu

Hatiku ini bukanlah hati
Yang tercipta dari besi dan baja
Hatiku ini bisa remuk dan hancur

Kamu paksa aku
Menerima cintamu lagi
Dengan segala tingkah lakumu
Yang membuatku bingung

Kamu tahan aku
Dengan logikamu lagi
Kau pikir aku akan mencair
Dengan rayuanmu...

:: Bitches ::

Hi Kengkawan...

Apa kabar? Agak lama gak aku tak berblog kan? I know I dont have to explain myself to anyone but to answer everyone's question, lets just say that aku dapat dugaan yg amat2 hebat & it comes in a package. Sedebuk aku kena... Terduduk gak aku.. Tapi takpe, aku ok..

Anyway, apa yg aku nak citer skang ni ialah pasal bitches..

What is the characteristic of a bitch?

Do you know any ultimate bitch in your life?

I am now reading a book by Sherry Argov called Why Men Love Bitches.

Sebenarnya lama dah aku nak baca buku ni tapi tak penah terbeli. So that day masa temankan amir beli buku, aku baca la buku ni.. alamak terus terhooked!

And therefore, I highly recommend this book to every girl in the world..

Kalau terjumpa baca eh..

Enjoy!